Lords Rule In Favour of Purdy

Debra Purdy has won here case . Read about the decision here
and here .Read my post from yesterday for details.

Although I am happy for her, I hope Debra Purdy will choose to continue to live . I can't imagine what life must be like for her and I agree that we should be allowed to die with dignity. My concern is people will think that MS is unbearable and ends in death.
Yes we are all going to die, but MS is not a death sentence.

Purdy Decison Tomorrow

Tomorrow Britain's highest court will decide the assisted suicide case of Debra Purdy . Read about it here
Debra Purdy, who has MS, wants her husband to accompany her to Switzerland, were she intends to end her life through assissted suicide. She wants to make sure he will not be prosecuted for doing so. Currently the law isn't enforced, however you can face a prison sentence for aiding a person in this way.

I'll post an update tomorrow.

Day one of THC vapour. Trying to tell myself it doesn't work, only it does. I felt relaxed and had a better night's sleep , meaning I only woke up twice instead of the usual four times. Did it really lessen the tingling and burning sensation in my feet ? I will post an update on this too, later in the week. I want to see if the effect is consistent or was simply wishful thinking.

Count To Ten, Count To Ten

Today was the most frustrating of work days . Any and every thing, that could go wrong did. I was so annoyed, I flipped out and was ranting about the stupid bureaucracy, and the stupid old decrepit laptop, and stupid everything. Counting to ten doesn't work for me. At least I do settle down quickly after one of my rants. I justify them by saying they are therapeutic and pointing out how low my blood pressure is. Really though I am not happy when I freak out like that.

My son is buying me a vapourizer so I can try the THC vapour to see if that will help keep me calm . I'm also hoping it will lessen the anxiety attacks. I'm not a druggie and I've never smoked dope except to try it a couple of times when I was a teenager. I do think it's worth trying the THC, as it is supposed to work and I think it is easier on the system than other drugs I have tried. I'll post an update on how that goes.


At the harbour this evening. Couldn't get a photo of the swans with all their heads up. They were too busy eating to co operate. Anybody know if this is a woodchuck or a ground hog ? Ran into this cute little guy on my walk. Having good luck seeing critters this summer.

Now Where's That Pot of Gold ?

After a total blowout weekend of one storm after another I had had enough. Around 6:30 I decided to heck with it and went for a walk. Well what do you know?! The most beautiful thing happened. I looked up and saw a rainbow ! Ran back in the house to grab my camera and was able to get a few shots of it. My son says it's simply random forces of nature, but I think it's magic. Didn't find a pot of gold though.

Time for a movie. Tonight it's" Cell Block 2455, Death Row". Love these old black and white films with a message

Bee Venom Love

I am sure every mother feels their daughters are the best. I know I do, I thank GOD for my jewels. I am thankful that I lived to see myself in my girls; there was a time I did not think I would be around to see them grow up to be the beautiful women they are today. Having them in my life has made it easier to live with this ugly disease called multiple sclerosis.

Everyday is a struggle getting up; everyday is different from the next. During the past two weeks, it took every ounce of energy I had to go on with my day against the pounding punches of PAIN. Many days I wanted to relieve myself from this excruciating pain by putting on a morphine patch.

I wanted it so bad, but I refused to give in because I NEVER want to experience this again. I cannot hide anything from my daughters; they seem to know when I am having a hard time with multiple sclerosis. I opened my email one day and received the following from one of my daughters:

Mom I saw that honeybee venom is a therapy that treats MS pain. I saw this on "Radical Hollywood Remedies" last night and did some research and found this link about it. On the special, it says the honeybee therapy cost $75 a session. I suggest you try this and I will pay for your first session. I suggest this because I truly believe you should try natural remedies to lure yourself off the drugs. It doesn't hurt to try natural procedures since God put them on earth for us to use to heal our bodies to live a longer healthier life. Everyone please let me know all your thoughts on this.

http://health.discovery.com/centers/althealth/beetherapy/bkgsclerosis.html

Then there was this reply email from another daughter:

I think it's an absolutely wonderful idea! I'll try it with you!


I appreciate my daughters looking out for me and wanting to pay for me to have some bee venom because of their love for me, I do not know if I can do this. I am paranoid about trying something new. I know I do not want to go back to wearing morphine patches again and my doctors do not want to prescribe Lortab like they use to...thanks to all the accidental overdosing in the entertainment industry.

I survived this many years living with pain, with God’s help, I will make it some more years. However, I am open to natural pain resources; I am not saying I will never try bee venom as a natural pain remedy. I am old school and I have to get over my paranoia trying new drugs or natural remedies…blame it on my Daddy I get it from him :-)

Yes America ! I Like My Healthcare

Here's an interesting poll I found at a U.S. news website .

I just have one thing to say to all you Senators, who are trying to scare people with horror stories of the Canadian health care system. How many Americans die because they have no access to health care? How many suffer for the same reason? How many wait and wait? Go bankrupt ?

OK, that's four things and questions, not answers, so I will say this to you: I am very happy with my health care, Thank You very much, I don't care for your system, even Obama's proposed new improved one. If I had to pay for all the services I have used in the past five years( most of it good and waiting times were reasonable) I would either be bankrupt or dead.

Oh Yes ! Let's not let the government get in the way of your health care choices. The insurance companies do it so much better.

Bunch of Little Things

We are having very odd weather for July. It's been cool and rainy this week so far, more like April.

Have to say I'm feeling like crap. I know I don't have big challenges like some people, who have to deal with being wheelchair or bed bound. For me it's a bunch of little things and when those little things pile up, it sucks.
If I could have one wish come true it would be to be able to go to bed, fall asleep, and stay asleep through the night. I'm not greedy, I'd settle for six hours straight. No wonder I'm so darn tired. How can I have energy with these fragmented sleep patterns night after night. I go to bed and the burning and tingling in my feet keep me awake. The crazy, high pitched, whooshing, in my ears drives me nuts . Pains that move around, come and go, disappear, and come back randomly. And headaches coming on more often , stronger, and last longer.
No none of it a big deal individually, but lumped together, well I just start crying because I get so fed up.

I'm also sick to death of being treated either like a delicate flower or mental defective . Worse, the ones who tell me how strong and brave I am. No I'm not, but I like having a roof over my head, good food to eat, and a clean bed to sleep in, so I get up and do my thing. Not as good as I use to, but good enough to get me through the day.

I found a "handy man" who's going to come over and do all those little annoying jobs that need to get done around here. He was recommended by a friend . Hope he works out I've had so many incompetents who have made things worse around here. I rather pay somebody than put up with the good Samaritans. Oh am I crabby today or what ?